很痛苦。。。

现在的我很痛苦。。。
眼泪停不下来。。。

整件事是我的错行不行？？
是我迟回才撞车的行不行？？

我讨厌他们。。。
每次吵架。。。
夹在中间都是我！！！
我不喜欢这样！！
我不喜欢这种责任！！

我已经对课业很压力了。。。
但你们还是给我这么多的压力。。。
谁说什么都不对。。。

如果那时撞严重点，就那么的让我永远消失那不就好。。。反正这都是我的错。。。
消失了。。。
或许还有很多人会开心呢！！

What a bad week~~~

Haiz~~~
what a bad week.....

Lots of work coming in and stress coming in....
Finally, I'm seriously ill~~~

Fever, Flu, slight cough, sore throat and diarrhea........ What a messed!!!

The medicine i had is damn affective~~~ makes me so sleepy and can do my work~~ =.=

Oh Gosh~~~ Bad timing for sick man~~~ Work work~~~~ I hate essay!!!!

=.= long way to go~~~~

I'm sooo......... tired.

Finish my essay lets me feel no more energy to finish my other work... =.=

Still got Maya..... Major..... Drawing to finish.......

Oh gosh...... When i can get a proper sleep?? LOL

well.... I can only say..... Good luck to my self and FIGHT!!!

To sleep and When to sleep.Thats the question!!!

To sleep and When to sleep.Thats the question~~~~

Its a study week but end up i dun even have a time to rest properly, and I'm back to the condition of sickness again~~~

Just finish an bloody hell essay........... I'm totally speechless about it =.=

Up coming with more of my major projects..... Oh God!!!

It seems they are enjoying of torching us~~~~




For the last few weeks, thing start getting back to normal. I'm glad that thing is not hard to solve when the hate is gone and start speak wide open...... ^.^


But yet, seems like my life will never get peaceful at all. =3=

After one another, Seem like one like to forget about it but I can't.

Things is never be the same anymore once it screw up.....

I dunno what to say and how to face it anymore, it just......it is now different.

The feel and the thought upon it.

I'm sorry but I can't give anymore words, I can't do help anymore...... I just can't!

As i learned something, dun ever too close to "smthing", It will never turn out to be a good outcome once put in too much effort and relationship.....


I just sorry......

DAMN U~~~ You just teasing my patient!!!

7th September

Today was suppose to consider a happy day.
Playing around with my friend in class....
Sneaking Photo shoot on my friend in class....(not during lesson)
and have a nice chat with my ladies group.....

But all been ruin by someone who brainless......
Is been a long time ever since the misunderstanding case happens.
But this brainless person still idiot like hell.....
2 days ago told a friend of my said trying to not talk bad on me and trying to be normal..... however the attitude of it doesn't show me, so i just ignore and dun care.....
But today.....when my friend helps me carries my bag to the next lesson while i talk to my lecturer about my work. My friend used my bag to hit that person bcos that person tease my fren.
THen that person dodge and said dun want to touch my bag scare later got contaminate by my bag..... I was almost cry out loud when my fren told me this.......
Although i know it is not worth it....
But my heart is already hurt very deeply...

**IF U WANT KEEP DOIN THIS...... Go ahead.....No one will clean ur mouth for u and let see what u will got in the end~~~~ dun let me do thing i dun want to do.......

WHY this world got such person!!! Oh MAN~~~~~

PArty~~Party~~~!!!

5th September


Today have a MAYA Master Class(for those who dunno, MAYA is a 3D software that I currently studying)

Reach school quite early and damn tired.
it said started on 9.30am but my lecturer late again....as expected....LOL
Anyway, I know he told us time early so we will reach early.... but there still many who's late after all.....

Before started the lesson,There many thing happened.
Computer not working, people late, thats make my lecturer get pissed off... =.=lll
But we think he is already bad mood before he came to sch.

After everything settled,
The lesson start.

After a while, about 11.30am
We was called to go the other room.
Actually it was a surprise party for our Program Leader,Chris.
His birthday is on 3rd September. but his wife plan this bcos she want give our PL a surprise.

Then we enjoyed the party,specially the pizza.... LOL

After that we back to our lesson.


Around 5pm,the lesson end and me and my friends(classmate) went for steamboat about 6pm plus for late celebration of my birthday and it consider like a gathering.
We was very enjoy and the steamboat not bad except the place not good enough(dirty also,we caught a cockroach on our desk some more =.=lll)

But we had a great time on steamboat.... just a little unhappy with certain thing
(not bcos of the food).....=3=


Anyway, had a great time today.... long time nvr go out with a group of friend already!!! \(^.^)/

Worst birthday~~~~

4Th September

The biggest day in my life.....so far.(since I haven marry....LOL)
Is my 21st birthday!!
But this year I choose not to have cake for celebration with my family....
Because my dad had used a lot of money for our new house in singapore...
So, a proper meal from my family is good enough!

But this morning, we went to singapore cos there is a lot of thing need to settle for the new house.
Went to Causeway Point in woodland, then went to Yew Tee(where my new house is) police station to change address, before we will get an warning letter....hehe~~~

Then, we back to jb after that. It was a tired day after all, went so many places a day.

Dinner time, we went to a restaurant.
But the bad dream is just about to start.
Me & my dad was fight with my mom because of a STUPID dish.
So, it was also my worst birthday after all.....=3=

Is a "Wonderful" day.........Maybe a little....

3rd of September

Is consider a "Wonderful" day for me...
First early morning got "sabotage" by somebody.
throw me to partner a person who are been dislike by the whole class because of his weird behavious.
I must admit.... although i dun like the person who partner with me on acting class....
BUT~~~ he is much much better than somebody who cannot take care his mouth and beware whatever he speak!!! Brainless person. Doesn't even know whatever he speak can really harm a person! DAMN................(For that second, I was about to have tear in my eyes because of it)

But, quite having fun during the acting class!! and was very happy that our Program Leader praise us that we are ding good in the acting class!! Animation RULES!!

Then, was a very tired day, having 4 lesson in a day and there is so many break in between.....

Come to the drawing class.... our lovely drawing lecturer as usual had his long speech to us.... =3=
then as i know, the class and some friend not in my class was suppose to celebrate birthday to our classmate and friend ,Steven. then suddenly the person who hold cake is enter from the front door of the classroom. and we start to sing song for him.(But drawing teacher kick us out of the room, since we not suppose to eat in class, LOL) Then, Teddy come drag me and said I have to get out quickly.... I wonder why.... he say to me that they are celebrating for me together with steven since my birthday is the next day.... At first I was sriously shy, since it suppose to be steven birthday... BUT then my friend keep drag me in front of the cake.....LOL

And we start the celebration!!

Thanks to all my friend who celebrate for me and thanks to Sasha and Grace who got us the cake!!! It was a very nice cake after all.


I had a great day, although morning got this brainless person who do thing like that on me.

**Cross Your Heart**

Oh my, 14th August is a wonderful day!

Afternoon, at 1pm
(suppose to be watch earlier but my poor friends all got tired after Thursday class and they woke up late) =3= LOL
Me & my fren all went to watch "UP" at Suntec,Singapore.
That's a Awesome movie,Seriously!!
I guess can say is the 2nd successful movie after "Wall.e" as my personal view.
'Russell' the kid, is such a non-stop talking boy.
Haha~~~ Mr.Fitch was so annoyed by him~~~ that part was so...... cool~!!

'Kevin',the bird also a funny creature. haha~~ She like to follow what people does.


The Whole movie is fill with full of touching, adorable,funny,laugh and more~~~
MAn~~~Pixar is so powerful
I'm so wish to achieve my animation skill to that level!!

Well, I wont say i cant~~
bcos I still have few year of study to master and level up my skill~~

I will Gambateh to master my skill in order to become a great animator and bring my joy to everyone!! \(^.^)/


"Gambateh!!"

Another year~~~

Again,

is another year....
13th of August
I always remember this day
or I should say I cant forget this day.

You,
been far away from us few years...........
I'm not sad or cried anymore
I'm more remembering you always.....
I know what passed is never can be re-correct for prevent

Honestly i wish time can turn back.......
But I know I shouldn't think that way
I finally learn to let go now
Put you in my heart as a memorial

What I can't let go is too bad can't find the killer
Can't help to give you a peace and truth.....
What a regret............and pain

More or less
word won't bring out how I feel now
But my heart is always remembering you
My dear Friend~~~~

Rest In Peace

and hope you have a better next life.........
-.-

HooRAY!!! \(^.^)/

Yeah~~~~

I got it~~~ 拿到了！！

Thanks to my beloved- friend, Diana \(^.^)/

YEAH~~~YEAH~~~

小鬼，小鬼～～

《不屑》the album

SO thanks to you Diana~~~

For giving me this Lovely "Early" Birthday present!!!

Hooray!!!! \(^.^)/

Brand New Season

Is been a week since school start,

My life is so far so good except have to travel everyday..... through the custom... (@.@)

Is good to back to school, seeing my friends and enjoy my life again.

However, thing always not good as i thought, I guess~~~

Thing is hard to say, what i wish to be over but it still coming on~~~

I never understand people, even myself.

Said different word in front of others

Some one thought I never heard what Some one said,

But I'm not blind or disable of hearing.

I still can see and hear what some one does.

I'm not wanting anything or revenge or a fight any more.

I just want stop annoying me anymore

What done is done, What mistake made is also passed.

I jut want go with my own life and stop bothering my friend to make them dislike me.

I never done anything like that toward somebody.

Haiz~~~ I guess I'm done releasing my anger.

And I'm back to normal again! \(^.^)/

My blog history

Haiz~~~ after a year, I'm back to blog again.

I'm love to admit that I'm not a blog lover, or should I say I'm a lazy person to write blog.

However, recently I'm been thinking a lot.

I have too many worries and sadness which do not know where to tell or where to put.

I guess blog is the best way for me to release my anger and sadness.

So, here I am, back again to write blog.

\(^.^)/